i don't know

what i want. i don't know. and the more i thought, the more confused i got. suffice it to say that i don't really want to date anyone right now (not enough time nor self-esteem, and everything i really want, a friend can give), and i don't believe that the "ideal" can ever be ideal, and i'm getting way too philosophical for a blog assignment because this is something that's been on my mind anyway.

[fyi, wonky anatomy due to person being awkwardly composed of both genders]

i want someone who is adventurous (but grounded), because as much as i love video games/dumb cartoons/the internet, i love being outdoors, and it's far healthier than most things that occupy my time (see above). i just don't do it so much anymore, partially due to health concerns and homework (and allergies, right now, ugh), but mostly because i'm absorbed in an unhealthy american lifestyle.